Life in this city

Does your job inspire you?

Raawwr! — Tue, 08 Nov 2011 06:34:54 +0000

No, career builder, my job dos not. Thanks for the fucking reminder on this craptastic monday.
It was just what I needed.

FUCK HOW DO I MAKE THE MONEY I NEED AND STILL PURSUE SOMETHING THAT INTERESTS OR INSPIRES ME OR JUST DOESN’T MAKE ME WANT TO STAB PEOPLE DAILY?!?

* shrug *

Raawwr! — Wed, 05 Oct 2011 02:59:49 +0000

there it is. another email about promotions. another day of feeling like all my hard work is not paying off. it’s not that i was passed over for a promotion that i wanted, it’s that even though i’ve taken on 1 new role and 1 new title, it never matters. even though i’m now responsible for training all new hires for the front desk – the ‘face of the hotel’ … and working part time in reservations. i still have my current/old control job. today i worked control and trained a newbie at the same time. tomorrow i’ll do reservations while i train. Great. then they may want me to come in on my day(s) off to train some more. forget that i just worked a 65 hour work week….. and the fact that i didn’t even get 24 hours notice that i had a new hire coming in to start. and the fact that it’s the son of a senior vice president of the company. Excellent. Sure, i can stay and work an extra hour & a half preparing for him. Sure, I can still start at 6:30am and stay until 5:30pm today. and tomorrow. and friday. and probably my next off day too. UGH. I’m just getting a little worn out. But i need the money, so the overtime is welcome, but my patience and attitude is wearing thin (it usually does after just 3 or 4 days of work in a row… ).
So then today i get this awesome email about how great of a job so-and-so are doing (times 4) and no mention of what a killer job i do every fucking day, even though all my managers fight to have me on their shift because they know i can handle the position and things run smoothly when i’m there… Just a single line thrown in somewhere in that email about the roles i’ve been given and how I do a good job would suffice. I don’t want to be any sort of center of attention, but it would sure be nice to have it acknowledged that i work hard at doing a good job. Guess i have to kiss some more ass for that. O wait, kissing more ass would require me to kiss any ass to begin with. And thus is my problem. Not only am i incredibly socially awkward, but I refuse to kiss ass. I’ve told one of my bosses how i feel about her leaving after this week (i want to wrap my arms around her & never let her go! …she’s the greatest thing that’s ever happened to our department) but only because i sincerely mean it…

so, it’s just another day of feeling like all my hard work is not paying off, but i just have to keep reminding myself that it is, i just don’t see how yet. one day i will see it though. …right??

Never before…

Raawwr! — Sun, 02 Oct 2011 20:24:55 +0000

…have I met a general manager of a hotel who was more inept at dealing with people. He was friendly enough, but he needs to be kept in his office, with the door closed so the guests cannot hear the raucous coming from him. A small incident or issue arises and he Freaks Out. I mean, when people show up to check in several hours before check-in time, and there are no clean rooms, you should calmly ask the guest to have a seat in the lobby for a few minutes while you see about getting them in ASAP. Instead, you went behind the thin-as-paper wall (that didn’t extend to the ceiling or have a door) and called housekeeping on a loud radio and shouted about ‘how can we get some more fucking rooms clean?!’ as if no one could hear you because they couldn’t see you. This was crazy.

It’s no wonder 2 of your 4 agents has no idea how to handle guests and issues either. It was unbelievable! One of the 2 was just terrified of a remotely upset guest, and the other just didn’t give a shit about anything at all really. They are masters of the blame game, trying their best to put the blame on anyone other than them or the hotel.

When you over sell a hotel, and have to relocate people, you cannot blame it on a specific other guest of the hotel. Just either admit that you oversold, or calmly say that a few guests extended their stay and you cannot legally throw them out of the hotel. This was the most unbelievable incident to date! You can’t say that this specific company didn’t checkout today as scheduled and that’s why you have no room … what if someone from that party hears you say that, or the upset guest sees them in their company uniform or logo t-shirt at breakfast in the morning?? You just cannot do that!!

I come away more thankful of the people I work with. somewhat

Flying

Raawwr! — Wed, 28 Sep 2011 11:27:30 +0000

I’m on a plane waiting to depart for White Plaines, NY… Final destination is Fishkill, NY. My job is sending me to help train a newly acquired property on operating systems… Yikes! So I’ll be gone 5 days, and it I a good opportunity for some goo exposure… Maybe I could transfer to Japan after all?
BTW, this plane is SO TINY!! I hate small planes! I’m in my single seat and then there is the aisle and 2 seats across…yep, just 3 seats per row I need to sleep or read my manga, while listening to Ayumi Hamasaki… *sigh* Japan!

Everyday I’m hustlein’

Raawwr! — Sat, 24 Sep 2011 03:39:31 +0000

Im dying to get to Japan as soon as possible! Maybe it’s just an excuse to quit the job that stresses me out like crazy; I am itching to embark at my attempt at truly flying by the seat of my pants, trying to make it as an artist and/ or marketer or designer or whatever, but in the most unconventional way I can think of… finally realizing my dream of traveling the world for my life?
Whenever I was asked what I wanted to do, my answer was always ‘out there’… Artist, DJ, world traveler, photographer… Never a solid job I could nail down and specify, but that’s ok, thats why I try & hustle almost everything I can… Preparing for a crazy life that many people wish they lived but will never have the balls to do. If I ever write a book, that will be the title- the life most wish for but dont have the balls to live. …copyright, bitches!
Anyway… It will take a bit of planning on our part to make sure we have some money to even get flights booked, but the balls are rolling and by this time next year, we’ll be in Japan and I’ll have sent in my official ‘F you’…er, resignation letter!
One way or another… Wether I have to make the decision to never return to this country or not… Even if I have to go alone, Japan will be mine in the next 11 months.

Raawwr! — Fri, 16 Sep 2011 03:27:10 +0000

“not all those who wander are lost”

…sometimes I suppose I could use a reminder of this. I feel like I am just wandering around all the time.

Next stop, Osaka!!!

Raawwr! — Mon, 12 Sep 2011 11:02:37 +0000

We’ve got my father’s blessing- he said to go- you’re still young & you don’t have kids…
So now that’s all I can think of… I miss Osaka the most! So once I make it through these last days of the strike, and get caught up on my homework on Wednesday, then the next task will be researching jobs in Osaka and finding out what I could do with [very] limited Japanese language skills… And figuring out how we will move from our huge studio/apt space to a studio apartment …it won’t be that hard? I just need a job!
So I’m seriously considering a move to Osaka in approximately 6 months? Right before cherry blossom time would be perfect

Some of you Union Workers need to run & hide

Raawwr! — Sat, 10 Sep 2011 14:54:34 +0000

Because if I hear you striking outside my wall of windows at work when I get there tomorrow at 6:15 in the fucking morning, I will go ape shit on your ass, with your own cooking pot.

The past 2 days, from 6:15 until I leave at 3:30pm, I have listened to chanting, shouting, bullhorns with siren sounds blaring, and pots & pans being banged together. I don’t want to hear it another day. You’re strike has only pissed off your coworkers (NOT the people who actually work on your union contracts) and the folks who are the reason why you even have a job to begin with. Sorry if I sound like an asshole, but if you really are that unhappy with your job, you can move back to Mexico, South America, and China, and get out of the way because there are probably at least 20 people waiting to fill each of your positions.

I probably wouldn’t be quite so annoyed if my job didn’t require me to answer all the calls from the guest rooms of the hotel (and there are A LOT of them), complaining of the noise below from the street waking them up too early. So now you’re pissing off all of us and we’re not happy. I have to work with you, and the guests are the ones who ultimately pay your paycheck, so you should probably go strike outside the human resources office, and corporate offices, not outside MY fucking window.

It doesn’t help my attitude that my husband got fired Thursday and could use a job.

So shut up, go back to work, and be happy you have a good job, and a free warm meal each day provided by your job.

What to do…

Raawwr! — Thu, 08 Sep 2011 05:05:19 +0000

Im considering staying with friends for a few nights. I have 3 offers so far. I’m just kind of sick of always feeling like shit, so on 1 hand I would like you to see how it is without me. But then again I’m afraid you would like it too much and still not appreciate me.

I’m just fed up or slightly past that.

What’s the point?

Raawwr! — Tue, 06 Sep 2011 12:18:47 +0000

Couples therapy… I need to look up the meaning of therapy because im pretty sure it doesnt mean to crush the heart of your significant other… Yet that’s exactly what it feels like so far.
Hashing up things I’ve already heard about how ‘this’ isn’t what he expected marriage to be… Well, after having a few days to examine, it’s not what I expected either.
I didn’t expect to support someone who got fired 3 months after we got married, I didn’t expect to not go after jobs because now that he has one (for the moment), I’m not sure if he could find one in whatever city we would end up in. Its not like i am upset we’re not making the big bucks, but i dont want to end up living in a cardboard box with my debtors chasing me down. But at the same time, I have tried to hustle and work extra so we can pay our bills, while he sat around collecting unemployment.
If I hadn’t married so young maybe I would have found someone who appreciate me and didn’t point out all my failures and flaws almost daily… As if I’m not often enough aware of my failures. I left our first couples therapy feeling attacked. With. 6 inch knife.
Or maybe I would be single and would be entirely free to go where I want, be with whoever I want to be with, and free to procrastinate as much as I fucking want.

But, I did marry at 23, and I did marry him… So is it better to enjoy what i have and make the most of every moment like I’ve tried to do, even when life has gotten tough, and small feelings of regret creeped up? Or do we end it before it goes in further?

I’ve been told by 3+ people in the past 6 months that he holds me back and he got the better end of the bargain. I’ve always said ‘no, of course not’ but maybe it’s time to open my eyes and stop being so supportive. All it’s gotten me is pain. I’m a very loyal friend and person and this relationship is becoming a kick in the face.

Well my face fucking hurts.