Perfectionist
I guess I thought I wasn’t one anymore, but really I just haven’t thought about it in a while. I’m still here, still putting projects off because I feel like I won’t be able to do it well enough, lookng away, past everyone during critiques because I feel like everything I bring is so lame compared to everyone and it upsets me. My computer skills (or lack of them truly) are holding me back… I might have a good idea for a project but if i cant draw it decently, i feel like its impossible… I need to spend a good hour on tutorials each day over winter break.
I wish I had learned earlier on to have the balls to put myself out there, even myself via my work…but I’m a wuss; I get so nervous and forget everything about why I made certain choices in the work and I take all the crit’s too personally… I’m a senior, but I feel like a sophmore, like I’m only just seeing the tip of the iceberg on all this design stuff!
yes, yes I need to update… (thanks for the nudge, Angela!)
Well, i’m currently reading the Vampire Diaries… they are okay, but I like the show a little better so far.
I’ve also just gotten the latest R Kelly album… containing the song ‘Number One’ – the video for this was shot just outside my job – R Kelly’s white Lamborghini was out here and a Maybach. I never heard of a Maybach until that video shoot, but you can find a used one for … $196,995 – that’s the cheapest one I saw nationwide. WTF!!! that’s CRAZY!!!
I’m also back into freak-out mode for school, since the Thanksgiving break is over and I have class in less than 9 hours. :’(
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Quick drunk moment (not mine):
SO, how drunk do you need to be, to smear red lipstick all over your face, then stumble into a crowded bar full of doctors, and sit at a table full of people you don’t know?
and this, while you grip the table to steady yourself even though you’re seated? Then to put up a fight when security tries to take you outside and get you home… i’ve been pretty drunk in some of my days… but I’m pretty sure I never went to a bar in a hotel and told them I was staying there… with lipstick smeared across my face.
I’ve talked to cabbies the whole way home about their life in Africa to keep myself from feeling the world spinning around me, and told a friend “i’ll be right back’ and woke up in the bathroom floor several hours later, but i’ve never looked that ridiculous in a large public place full of people.
Tell me some of your drunk moments!
Here is what I’ve been listening to/ added to my itunes lately (I know it’s not all new in general, but some is relatively new to me):
1. Kid Cudi: Man on the Moon: End of Day
- Soundtrack 2 my Life
- Sky Might Fall
- Up, Up, and Away
- Pursuit of Happiness
This whole album kicks ass. It’s really good. It has been on a lot lately. I would highly recommend it to all music fans – i think it’s listed as hip-hop but it’s so much more… it definitely blends some genres… Check it out!
2. TLC: entire Discography
- No Scrubs
- Unpretty
- Creep
- Hat 2 Da Back
- Waterfalls
What is there to be said here… it’s TLC.
3. Thrice: Artist in the Ambulance, Illusion of Safety, & Vheissu
- Stare at the Sun
- Kill me Quickly
- Beltsville Crucible
- Deadbolt
- Music Box
Thrice has always been passionate screamo/rock/ whatever you want to call it… and even though titles like ‘kill me quickly’, ‘a subtle dagger’, & ‘the red death’ might lead some to believe that they are all morbid and about death… they’re not – it’s not about death in the normal sense, it’s about …ending(?) instead. Killing pride, and wanting to start afresh, not being happy with what you see around you, and wanting to stive to be better, to be stronger, and realizing the good stuff that can be achieved. They motivate me.
4. Miike Snow: Miike Snow
- Animal
- Horse Is Not a Home
- Burial
- Cult Logic
These are catchy and you will be stuck with them in your head. But it’s not annoying so go for it!
5. The Smiths (various albums)
- Ask
- There is a Light That Never Goes Out
- Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want
Ummm the Smiths are not anything new… but they are relatively new to me, and if you’re feeling low, maybe you should go with Miike Snow instead b/c these are all kinda sad! For example: “and if a ten ton truck kills the both of us to die by your side well the pleasure, the privilege is mine”, from There is a Light… So… yeah. But I can’t escape his voice! Its so haunting, it draws me into their music.
Snoop Dogg is just always good to throw in any mix!
Way to go man.
This moron was sending/receiving explicit images with young children. What a creep! Seriously… and to do it from school too?? WTF. That’s really gross.
Man robbed of 16 tacos by masked machete man
November 17, 2009 (ELGIN, Ill.) — Police in Elgin say they are hunting for a machete-wielding man who apparently has quite a taste for tacos.
Elgin Deputy Police Chief Jeff Swoboda says a local resident was walking back to his vehicle Sunday night after buying 16 tacos for $41 when a man wearing a black ski mask and a hooded sweat shirt ran up to him.
Swoboda says the masked man waved a machete and took the tacos, but nothing else. He then drove off in an older-model light green car
The victim was not injured.
